Jeremy Kyle, Vitamin C, and peeing on sticks.

I've actually been so lazy recently! I quit my job last week- because my manager was an a***hole- and we've kind of decided that there's no point in me getting a new job until we move. So my day consists of Jeremy Kyle, peeing on sticks, and laying in bed. It was nice at first, but after a few days it gets a bit tedious, I like to be busy! Saying that, it is quite nice to relax and rejuvenate for a little while.
Today was pretty much like every other day, woke up, took my temperature, watched JK. Got to lunch time and I was oh so hungry, so we decided to go down to the shop. I saw some vitamin bits and pieces in there, and I'd been saying for a while that I wanted to get some to help with the TTC, so I got Vitamin C + Zinc chewy vitamins. They're orange flavoured, and taste quite nice actually! I could eat a whole pack, but they're one a day, and 'excessive consumption can lead to laxative effects'. Not a good idea to eat too many then.
The quitting smoking thing isn't going to bad, but still not as well as it probably could be. My head's been so all over the place recently, I need a fag or two to calm me down (bad excuse, I know). But hopefully I'll knock it on the head soon :)
Oh, and also a quick hello and thank-you to all my followers and readers xxxxxx

Mood swings!

I have no idea what's wrong with me today. I've been in quite possibly, the most argumentative mood I've ever been in in my life. I carried on an argument with Dave for like, no real reason. I just want to argue. And I want to be mean! I reckon it's a combination of not smoking as much as I'm used to, and the fact that I've had two faint positive pregnancy tests, and a negative, so my brain is all over the place. And the last few days I've had cramps like, where I think my ovaries are, so if I'm not pregnant then I think I may have ovulated. So I'm just a massive pile of hormonal grump today! I've been so tired as well, which can't have helped in the slightest! Let's hope for everyone else's sake that I'm not like this for long, and that this isn't a sign of what I'm going to be like during pregnancy!

Another update!

One fag. ALL DAY. I'm getting good at this. You know what? I haven't even fancied a cigarette in so long. I just have to have the odd one to control my mood swings! But I think I'm doing quite well really. Dave's trying to quit as well, 1) to help me, and 2) to help his little spermies!

We've finally got a date for the engagement party today, the 20th of August :) So not particularly long to plan it all and send out invites, but I'm sure we'll manage! Maybe there'll be another announcement to make that day?

Smoking Update

Today, I've had 2 cigarettes. Not too bad really! And I haven't even started trying to quit properly today. I think this might actually be slightly easier than I thought. Only time will tell...

Best and Worst

Seeing as anyone reading this will be doing so to find out about me, I thought I'd give everyone a bit more of an insight into my life, and the special person in it.
The best and my most favourite thing about me is Dave, my fiancé. He is the most amazing person I have ever known. He already is an amazing father to Jack, and I can't wait for us to have our own child. We're moving into our new flat on the 19th of August, and we're getting married early next year.
The worst thing about me? I smoke. I don't even know why I do it. I hate it so much! I hate the smell, I hate the taste, I hate that it's become such an unsociable thing to do, and most of all, I hate the health damaging aspect of it. When I was younger, I was so against smoking. My nan has been smoking 60 a day since she was 12, and when my brother, Matt, and I were kids, we used to snap her cigarettes and flush them down the loo! But some where along the line, I became addicted to them. And now, I'm determined to quit. I've wanted to for ages, but I think the prospect of falling pregnant has finally given me something to make me more driven. I'm not a particularly 'heavy' smoker, but I am already cutting down :) I'll make sure I fill everyone in on how it goes; wish me luck!

Baby Jack

These pictures are of my gorgeous stepson, Jack. He's just turned one, and is the most amazing little boy!

Annoyed with myself!

So, I got rushed into hospital a couple of weeks ago, and had to have my first smear (OUCH) and they found some 'problems' and put me on medication. I was prescribed metronidazole, doxycyline, mefenamic acid, tranexamic acid and norethisterone. Well, I thought it was enough of a nightmare remembering to take them, and dealing with the nausea, vomiting, and generally being knocked out with all the side effects, I found out today that they severely decrease a woman's fertility! We've only been trying for a few days, so it shouldn't have done much damage, but I'm still annoyed with myself for not checking the leaflets when we decided to TTC.

Dave and I have only just started TTC. I'm so impatient, and to be honest, I think we both have our hearts on it happening in the first cycle! It pretty unlikely, seeing as I have only just come off BC, and my body is completely up in the air, but there's still hope!

We've already got our names picked out, Sophia Rose for a girl, and Noah David for a boy. We'll definitely be ecstatic either way. We just want one of our own! I'm going to talk to Dave tonight about using Conceive Plus. I've heard it works miracles for some couples, so hopefully we'll be some of the lucky ones! Fingers crossed for the BFP!

It all begins...

My name's Emma. I've been with Dave for 5 months, and although we're moving quick, we're more than ready for a baby. We got engaged on the 5th of May, and have been living together pretty much since we got together. I guess you could say our relationship is a bit 'controversial'. There's a bit of an age difference, and as stated before, we moved particularly quick.

But the thing is, we haven't rushed. I feel like there's a difference between moving quick, and rushing. Rushing is when you do everything straight away, without thinking. Moving quickly, however, is when you know what you want; you think about it, and you know. And when you know what you want, why should you wait? Dave makes me happy. He treats me like a princess, he's gorgeous, he makes me laugh, and I love him more than anything.

We've spoken for a while about having a baby. And now, everything seems to be in place for it to happen. We move into our new flat next month, we both work, and we both have time for a child. I look at him with other children, and I fall in love with him just a little bit more- even when I don't think it's physically possible for me to love him any more! I can't wait for us to have our own little bundle, and I guess this is just the start...